If you have fallen short of the person you can be, then it is demoralizing. You move three steps forward, and then fall two backwards. You feel that you are moving like a snail. What could possible go wrong? You are doing something right and wrong. Noticing it is what you are doing right. If you do not notice it, then you would not move forward. This is the implication of being blocked or stuck. This self-awareness is the key to progress both in personal and spiritual aspect.
The only thing you are doing wrong is not noticing this key and consciously using it. You are not more effective in controlling your achievement or growth as you are not controlling your awareness. You are not noticing after the fact not before and during the actual emotional, mental, sensual, and physical activity. This is what we mean by missing the boat. Meaning to say, you are not all there. You are not present while life is taking place. You are missing in action. You are always looking at the past of future playing the end game instead of the now game.
You are doing lower faculty things but having no awareness that you are doing it while you are doing it. You are not on top of those activities but below them. They control you instead of controlling them. This is the main reason why you lose control of the development, which is supposed to be designed as constant. It is like driving with a foot on brakes.
Higher self-awareness is actually not an automatic response. It needs to be practiced. Only the lower faculties and appetites are autopilot and not your higher faculty of natural and pure awareness. You are not born to become a finished product but to become continuously growing product. Life is like education, which is a never ending process.
The practice of undisturbed growth is to be aware where you are right now, where you are heading, and then already be there. All phases of your life should overlap and should not happen one at a time. It is a state of timelessness of being present. Life is taking place all at once and should be lived all at once as well. There is no space or time involved. Becoming and being are happening simultaneously. The future is actually now, no thinking involved. Thinking while acting is stagnant like treading water. The key here is to be aware while you are acting. It is going with the flow, thinking is not higher self-awareness. It is of a lower faculty. The objective would be to keep the awareness above and distinct from thinking, emotion, etc. This is the present way of unstoppable progress and creative power and infinite joy.